Monday, July 9, 2007
__ I had onli myself to blame __
been sometime i updated my blog,
since not much ppl read, i would crap
Sigh the last week was torrid horrid morbid.
i saw a cat got knock off by a car.
it was sick, i took a step back and vomited.
then on week ends i did nothing
slacked.
monday in sch was no different.
emptyness, sudden loneliness in the crowds
feel so cramped
Isabel remind me lots of time i shouldnt open my mouth
i shouldnt from now on then
Elieen remind me lots of time i should open my mouth
having myself shared to someone.
thx
then after the maths, everyone had stuff to do
left me alone once again. maybe its just me thinking too much, everyone have their life i guess
so i ended up going and hanging out with mark, alvin joel and nazari
they aint so bad
showed them my favorite hiding space
we slacked and talked
ya and i messed up my ipc crystal growing
had a nervous breakdown, drank 4 packet of milk and 6 sticks of japanese chicken bbq satay
sigh
sometimes i wonder if i realli was there.
dam glad no one commented on my hair,
my uncle used me as test.
and god dam isabel must say until dam bad
but i guess its bad.
even the dye cant be seen
sigh
Walked back home, saw old schl mate, with her bf.
so i siam, but looked from far.
She seems happier now.
could remember that time she poured to me her troubles
how different she is now.
i guess everyone change when they met their love of their life.
tml have thermodynamic test, no mood to read
discouraged, tattered, broken
yet i smiled and smiled
i don wan anyone to see how mess up my life is.
and fuck the world
and thx my family.
sometimes, i think i am important.
to my family ^^
sometimes i wish i was never borned.
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lonely, like my shadows.
people, all around me.
noise, they all made.
smiles, they all had.
joys, they all shared.
pity, all i wallowed
hate, not them but me
love, to be with them but not
try, but never succeed
fail, to be unnotice
shut up, which i cant do
Shadows they shall be, Lonely
All around me they should, People
Made for themselves, Noise
Had for themselves, Smiles
Shared for themselves, Joys.
Shallnt sink in it, Pity
No one i should do, Hate
To have wad i have, Love
Be happy with wad i have now, try
but always its not wad it seems, fail
Be someone esle, shut up
i don deserve to speak.
i don have the right to ask for money
(come to think of it, sigh i will never get my moeny from jie ying. Never known myself to get money from girls. just gave away my money i guess)
i don have the right to be seen
- because of you, i will fight the wave of depression -
cause i still look from far at you
Even though we may still be together,
but its enough to see you just smile
even for me
at least i could see you. But you are floating away
Life of a depressing Vintage Ice.
Live Earth
Die Ice
Leave Me
Help Earth
Save me
pls save me.
i cant survive on broken fantasy and blurred reality.
been sometime i updated my blog,
since not much ppl read, i would crap
Sigh the last week was torrid horrid morbid.
i saw a cat got knock off by a car.
it was sick, i took a step back and vomited.
then on week ends i did nothing
slacked.
monday in sch was no different.
emptyness, sudden loneliness in the crowds
feel so cramped
Isabel remind me lots of time i shouldnt open my mouth
i shouldnt from now on then
Elieen remind me lots of time i should open my mouth
having myself shared to someone.
thx
then after the maths, everyone had stuff to do
left me alone once again. maybe its just me thinking too much, everyone have their life i guess
so i ended up going and hanging out with mark, alvin joel and nazari
they aint so bad
showed them my favorite hiding space
we slacked and talked
ya and i messed up my ipc crystal growing
had a nervous breakdown, drank 4 packet of milk and 6 sticks of japanese chicken bbq satay
sigh
sometimes i wonder if i realli was there.
dam glad no one commented on my hair,
my uncle used me as test.
and god dam isabel must say until dam bad
but i guess its bad.
even the dye cant be seen
sigh
Walked back home, saw old schl mate, with her bf.
so i siam, but looked from far.
She seems happier now.
could remember that time she poured to me her troubles
how different she is now.
i guess everyone change when they met their love of their life.
tml have thermodynamic test, no mood to read
discouraged, tattered, broken
yet i smiled and smiled
i don wan anyone to see how mess up my life is.
and fuck the world
and thx my family.
sometimes, i think i am important.
to my family ^^
sometimes i wish i was never borned.
---------------------------------
lonely, like my shadows.
people, all around me.
noise, they all made.
smiles, they all had.
joys, they all shared.
pity, all i wallowed
hate, not them but me
love, to be with them but not
try, but never succeed
fail, to be unnotice
shut up, which i cant do
Shadows they shall be, Lonely
All around me they should, People
Made for themselves, Noise
Had for themselves, Smiles
Shared for themselves, Joys.
Shallnt sink in it, Pity
No one i should do, Hate
To have wad i have, Love
Be happy with wad i have now, try
but always its not wad it seems, fail
Be someone esle, shut up
i don deserve to speak.
i don have the right to ask for money
(come to think of it, sigh i will never get my moeny from jie ying. Never known myself to get money from girls. just gave away my money i guess)
i don have the right to be seen
- because of you, i will fight the wave of depression -
cause i still look from far at you
Even though we may still be together,
but its enough to see you just smile
even for me
at least i could see you. But you are floating away
Life of a depressing Vintage Ice.
Live Earth
Die Ice
Leave Me
Help Earth
Save me
pls save me.
i cant survive on broken fantasy and blurred reality.
your love is like a shadow at 8:20 AM
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