Sunday, October 19, 2008
Rain
I woke up late today again. so i couldnt gym
my body ache all over yet it doesnt hurt that way
i couldnt sleep at all recently
i spend the whole day at my bed.
onli went out to have lunch
i saw a cute baby though
had let him play with my keys
his mum is quite nice letting me fool ard i guess
i was on the way back listening to my music
when it rained
it didnt rain i mean
water literally fall onto the groud
cold cruel lashes of slivers
and i just got off the bus
the wind was swirling around me
rain pattering here there
my music was 'take a bow'
i don know been tuning it to that song alot
and i was climbing up the stairs of the overhead bridge
it was sheltered
and not completed.
it was bare at the end
exposed to the rain
the ground feel soft
i kept thinking of her
i stood at the edge of the shelter.
its like a line
between friends and lovers.
sheltered and rain
someone who could brave the rain
and seriously i felt God was near me
he made the rain even heavier just for that 5mins for me
i
stepped out
my phone
my mp3
friends psp
my wallet
my book
my heat
i got drenched right away
i did not run
blind
deaf
the rain is cold condesending
harsh and tearing
my body feel so good under it
it melted my thots away
it took all my longings for her away even for the moment
i saw nothing
no troubles
in the rain
i just felt peaceful
every step and every beat of the music linked
if its the closest i felt i wanted to kill myself
it is
i realise i made peace with myself
for that moment.
i felt i could have walked infront of a car smiling
i hated that.
how rain makes me weak
i walked back slowly to my house
i sms her i hoped she wasnt out
i thot her sms. 1 a day 2 a day 3 or 4 or any
would substain me
till the end
i hope she could stand in the rain with me
but i know no one will
cause in the rain
all my mask are gone
washed away
i feel alone
nothingness
sucidal
is it realli me?
i don know
i don want to know anymore
i don know how i can look at her anymore
she wants me to give up..
i don know
hope
will
never die
.
onli in the rain
those words shall break me
my body ache all over yet it doesnt hurt that way
i couldnt sleep at all recently
i spend the whole day at my bed.
onli went out to have lunch
i saw a cute baby though
had let him play with my keys
his mum is quite nice letting me fool ard i guess
i was on the way back listening to my music
when it rained
it didnt rain i mean
water literally fall onto the groud
cold cruel lashes of slivers
and i just got off the bus
the wind was swirling around me
rain pattering here there
my music was 'take a bow'
i don know been tuning it to that song alot
and i was climbing up the stairs of the overhead bridge
it was sheltered
and not completed.
it was bare at the end
exposed to the rain
the ground feel soft
i kept thinking of her
i stood at the edge of the shelter.
its like a line
between friends and lovers.
sheltered and rain
someone who could brave the rain
and seriously i felt God was near me
he made the rain even heavier just for that 5mins for me
i
stepped out
my phone
my mp3
friends psp
my wallet
my book
my heat
i got drenched right away
i did not run
blind
deaf
the rain is cold condesending
harsh and tearing
my body feel so good under it
it melted my thots away
it took all my longings for her away even for the moment
i saw nothing
no troubles
in the rain
i just felt peaceful
every step and every beat of the music linked
if its the closest i felt i wanted to kill myself
it is
i realise i made peace with myself
for that moment.
i felt i could have walked infront of a car smiling
i hated that.
how rain makes me weak
i walked back slowly to my house
i sms her i hoped she wasnt out
i thot her sms. 1 a day 2 a day 3 or 4 or any
would substain me
till the end
i hope she could stand in the rain with me
but i know no one will
cause in the rain
all my mask are gone
washed away
i feel alone
nothingness
sucidal
is it realli me?
i don know
i don want to know anymore
i don know how i can look at her anymore
she wants me to give up..
i don know
hope
will
never die
.
onli in the rain
those words shall break me
your love is like a shadow at 9:14 AM
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